First the numbers:
HW: 484
SW: 458
CW: 365
119lbs down from high weight and 93lbs since surgery!
The weight seems to be slowing down and just creeping off! I had been closer to 20lbs per month, but now it's 17!
My Surgeon wants me at 340 by the time I see him for my 6 month appointment. So 25lbs to go in about a month or so.. (My appointment isn't scheduled yet) It will be hard to get there, but hopefully I can step up the workouts some and mix in a protein shake every once in a while to help me out (now to find a protein shake I enjoy and Sleeven Spielberg actually tolerates)!
Everything is going really well! Some days are better than others, but I feel great! I definitely have more energy, and a lot more strength and stamina!
My only issue still seems to be my gallbladder. I haven't gone to see the doctor about it yet as it only happens once every couple weeks or so, even tho I probably should have gone somewhere this week when it happened since the attack lasted over two hours! I was close to hitting up an ER, but then it stopped! So I guess my next big attack I'll go get it checked out.. Can't keep up with these surprise attacks!
Besides bread, rice, and pasta, the only food restriction I still have is red meat! Only one more month until I get it back. I've broke the rule a couple times, but generally I have followed it. Can't wait to be off that restriction! I haven't really found avoiding bread, rice, pasta to be an issue at all! I've had a bite or two of bread.. But not rice or pasta... I fill up so quickly on everything else that it doesn't seem to bother me that I'm not eating it!
The mental aspect of having this surgery is something you can't ever really prepare yourself for. I still can look at any food and in my mind, want to devour a huge portion of it. Somewhere in my brain, it hasn't fully connected that I just can't eat that much. The worst part is when I make something that I have had before, lets say 2 eggs scrambled with a little cheese sprinkled on top. Most days I can eat it no problem and be nice and full. Some days I can eat only half and be overly full... It's like my stomach can't make up its mind. Watching people eat isn't a struggle of what they eat, more of how much.. I am full after around a 1/2 cup to 3/4 cup of food... But my mind wants more. And I can't seem to explain even to myself why more food would satisfy my brain even tho my stomach is already satisfied! Makes no sense right?!?
Also, I still crave crappy things. I still look at a cookie and try to convince myself it will be fine... And yes, I have had a few cookies and other things that I probably shouldn't have. It's not because those things in moderation will kill my diet... It's because I can only hold so much food.. If I put crap in my stomach, I have no room for protein, which is what I really need!
I just need to stay the course and keep on moving! I've got lots of goals to hit still and I have a timeline I want to do it in!
