Beyond Frustrated...

I AM FRUSTRATED.. No... BEYOND FRUSTRATED!!!

Since when did eating completely awesome and exercising until you want to collapse turn into weight gain?!? OH RIGHT, that's what would happen with me!

I got my new BodyBugg in the mail last week and was completely excited! Burn 3650 calories a day, consume 1400 calories a day should, in theory, come out of around 4.5lbs lost per week! Key words, IN THEORY!!!

I was disappointed last week when I only lost two pounds, but not completely down, cause at least I didn't gain.. right?!? Two pounds is still two pounds closer to my goal! And let's be honest, I can't complain about losing 26 pounds in three weeks!

But not this week! This week I have consumed so many fruits, vegetables, whole grains and chicken, that I want to explode! I paid careful attention to the ratio of Carbs/Protein/Fat and made sure I was eating at the proper foods at the right times of the day! Oh, the calories I have been burning! Between Turbo Kick, Attack, Boot camp, Training and running, I have burned PLENTY of calories everyday!

And yet, I gained weight... Its so so frustrating! The worst part is stress brings on weight gain... and ironically, all I do is stress about my weight gain! AWESOME! I have yet to have my "official" weigh in... but trust me, its not going to be pretty!

I guess this is just another bump in the road: a long, winding, kinda getting old road.

"If you have reason to be frustrated,
you also have the motivation necessary
to get beyond whatever is frustrating you."
- RM

Working Hard

"The dictionary is the only place
where success comes before work!"
- Mark Twain

This week has been rough. I have been working as hard as I can to get these pounds to come off! I didn't do nearly as well on my nutrition this week as I did last week and highly expected it to show up on the scale. I still ended up losing 6 1/2 lbs this week for a total of 24lbs in 2 weeks! I am MORE than excited about that! 5 more pounds til I'm back to my BL final weight and I can put my "Summer of crap" behind me!! Onto better things.. and smaller numbers on the scale! YAY!

The workouts this week were KILLER!! Attack and Turbo just never really get easier... I sweat out buckets in both of them and leave completely spent! Thursday's Boot Camp with Amanda was AMAZINGLY ridiculous! Over a mile in suicides that included jumping jacks, burpees, squats, tuck jumps, pushups and crunches all mixed into the suicides! YIKES!! Then on Friday, I had a boxing session with Travis, where we actually fought each other! He had gloves on and the only rule was to not hit faces... I tried my best to his his face, but failed terribly! My arms were EXHAUSTED beyond belief.. They still hurt a day today!! But it was an AWESOME 30 min workout!


Exhausted from Boot Camp suicides... but still happy?!?

On tap for this week... 2 Boot Camps, 2 trainings with Travis, 2 Turbo Kicks, 2 Body Attacks and 5 morning workouts of random cardio! Sounds like a week of fun to me!

Travis' Weight Loss goal for me this week : 5 pounds
Susie's Weight Loss goal for myself : 8-10 pounds

LET'S GET THIS!!!!

Must be doing something right!!

Today was weigh-in day... YIKES! The thought of an official weigh-in always scares me a little! (Even when I know I'm gonna kill it!) Weigh-in is usually at training (4pm) but we had to reschedule today's, so I went in this morning and weighed in!

Soo...


I LOST 17 1/2 LBS THIS WEEK!!
YAY!

I'm pretty excited about it!! I know this won't happen every week, but it feels like I'm finally back on track! 11 1/2lbs more til I'm back to my final BL weigh-in! And then its onwards and... downwards from there!!!

My diet is almost completely on!! I won't say its 100% because I haven't been planning and keeping a fully balanced diet like I want to do! But that's what is still on the schedule! Get back to planning meals instead of just staring at the fridge and throwing something together at the last minute! Obviously it worked out just fine this week, but I know it will catch up to me eventually!

Travis set my weigh-in goal this week at 8lbs!! So.. Here's to having another amazing weight loss week!

Its all about ME!

"Remind yourself again and again of why you must...
Hold your head high and keep your eyes on the goal"
Ralph Marston

Sorry it has been so long since I've blogged. I haven't been doing well.

Friday we had our first official weigh-in with Travis. I hate to admit the numbers.. but I'm up 29lbs since Biggest Loser ended. I am so disappointed in myself.

A good friend told me a while back that I was beautiful and that I don't have to change or lose anymore weight if I'm happy. It's hard for me to believe the word beautiful... and thinking back on that statement made me realize how truly unhappy I am with myself.

URGH... It's been a rough summer. My nutrition has been a complete downfall and besides my training and boot camp, my workouts have pretty much been a major area of disappointment.

What happened to my "intrinsic motivation"?!? I was in such good shape after Biggest Loser and a lot of that is gone. I struggle thru some workouts, But all of that is going to change.

OPERATION SUSIE is in full swing!!

I am a people pleaser! I'll do anything in my power to help a friend or make them smile (Even when I can't make myself smile)! Its just who I am. I constantly put other people first.

But I have to start putting myself and my goals first. I've made it most of the summer without moving any closer to (And for that matter further away from) my goals and that's just not acceptable.

I'm giving up drinking again! I did it for the 10 weeks of Biggest Loser and was just fine. Its a very social thing for me and I'm a very social person, but drinking does nothing good for my goals. Along with no drinking, is the very few and far between eating out. No restaurant offers the selections I need to lose the weight that I need to. It's also a social thing for me, that I won't completely be giving up, but will be cutting back extremely!

In other words, my whirlwind of a super fun summer is done! Its back to fairly lame Susie that works, goes to the gym, and goes home. If that's what I have to do to get to where I need/want to be.. then that is EXACTLY what I'll be doing!

Weekly weigh-ins with Travis will for sure keep me accountable for all of my actions! This week's weight loss goal is 6lbs! And that is completely do-able!

I'm rather excited to get back at it! Its not a fun time when all you do is sabotage yourself! Operation SUSIE is about ME.. and only ME!!

Steamboat Classic

After 2 years of saying I'll run the Steamboat Classic, I finally did it!!




It was a fairly nice day... a little humid, but not too hot, and there was a lovely breeze coming thru every once in a while (Or maybe that was just cause I was running so fast HAHAHA). I ran most of the 4 miles alone, just the way I like it.. Just me and my music! Although, at some point, I think I could have used the little birdie in my ear saying RUN NOW!! I shouldn't doubt myself, but I feel like I could have pushed just a little bit harder in some places!


Waiting to start the race!

I wanted to finish in under an hour (Travis thought I could finish in 57 mins).. but ended up finishing in 1:01:13... For a 15:18 pace per mile! Started out the race at at 16:16 pace for the first 2 miles.. ended with a 14:20 pace for the last 2 miles. (Which is a lot closer to what I should be) I'm a little frustrated that I didn't finish faster, but overall, I'm happy with everything!


Post Race with Cody and Stacy!

Soo... With Steamboat behind me, I've gotta refocus on getting back to losing weight, and continue working on my running! As much as I hate the thought of running, I feel so great afterwards!! So I need to keep going... Just keep putting one foot in front of the other!!

And so it ends!!

I have put off writing this blog because I didn't want to admit that its finally over! Biggest Loser 2011 was a blast and a half! We had our ups and our downs.. We had big leaps in our physical abilities and huge weight losses!

The Indigo girls ROCKED the competition! The 8 of us lost nearly 280 lbs in ten weeks! We also won every weekly challenge except one (Stupid lateral holds)! We all worked together so well, we were more like a family then a team!

Our trainers were always there for us! Travis and Dorian were the foundation of our team... They would lay it out for us and we did the work! They were there supporting us before the competition even began. They pushed us til we couldn't go any further. I couldn't thank Travis and Dorian enough for what they did for me and our team!

I ended up losing 46lbs, going from 312/2 to 266.2! I am very happy with that number! I also made big strides in running! From only being able to do 1/4 mile before BL to running 2 full miles during the final race, I still can't believe how far I have come along in my running! My measurements are also going DOWN DOWN DOWN!! I lost a total of 23.5 inches off of my body, including 11 inches off my waist and 3.75 inches from my thigh!!

My Indigo girls finished Biggest Loser 2011 by placing FIRST overall for weight loss!! And although I said in the beginning I'd win the whole thing, I came in 7Th place!

And in the end, I'm OK not winning... Because with Biggest Loser, its not about winning... It's about LOSING!!

Before/After!!!!

There will be a blog post tomorrow.. but first I thought I would post these before and after pictures from Biggest Loser!!

It's hard to see a huge difference in yourself when you look in the mirror everyday... but here's a 10 week difference... I like what I see!!

BL Update: Weeks 3+4

So much for keeping up with this every week!!

Week 3 actually started on Saturday this week because we had a make-up training for the session we missed during Snowpocalypse 2011! This training was AWESOME!! Burned a ton of calories, but had a ton of fun! Travis set up stations where we had to do different exercises for 2 minutes, then rotate!! My favorite was definitely the station that Travis was holding the punching bag and blocking our way to a basket where we had to throw balls into. Our goal was to get around him... or knock him down!!

Our challenge this week was wall sits! I rocked out a 5:05 wall sit, but wasn't enough to come in first, as Maria and her tiny legs sat there for 10+ minutes(RIDICULOUS!) BUT.. Our team came in first, and that's all that matters!

I was REALLY afraid of weigh in this week (I'm starting to see a trend)... but I did all I could, and actually ended up losing 7.2 lbs (290.2), so I was very happy with week 3!!

Week 4 started out with a bang, when we had to do our challenge! This week's challenge, as many laps as you can do around the track in 15 minutes.. and if you remember from the first week, Indigo doesn't walk.. Indigo runs!! So I ran.. and I ran.. and I ran!! (And by running, I mean more of a jog)BUT... Here's the GREAT news... I ran a whole mile straight!! WOOOOO!! That would be doubling my last run of only 4 laps and make it a whole 8 laps!! I did it in 14:20! I felt like I could have kept going too, but with only 15 minutes in the challenge, I opted to walk my 9th lap because I wouldn't be able to get back around the track to make the 9th lap count!

I didn't feel great about this week tho... It wasn't my work outs.. Cause both Dorian and Travis killed us during our training sessions... But it was my eating! I was NOT good. We drove up to Minnesota for Blues and Rivermen games over the weekend, and I had very little motivation to be good (although I did end up bringing food and cooking several of my meals) And even when I got, for some reason, I couldn't get my head back into my full on nutrition game!!

At the weigh in, I ended up gaining 1.4 lbs (291.6) which made me feel like crap! I work TOO HARD at the gym to go home and just eat mindlessly... I'm still 290+lbs... I should be able to lose 4-5 lbs a week easily!! I NEED to remember that everytime I reach for something that I know I shouldn't!!

6 weeks left... 20.6lbs down... 41.6lbs to go!! That's nearly 7lbs per week! YIKES!! I CAN DO THIS!

BL Update Weeks 1+2

Starting weight: 312.2 (Total lost = 137.8)

I had put a little weight back on after going out and eating/drinking all weekend long before the weigh in.. But I was ok with this! With the ramped up workouts I knew it would come off pretty easily because most of it was water weight due to the stupid amounts of sodium in anything that tastes amazing!!

Work outs were ok for Week One! Day One we had to do our rope pull challenge and PT tests and that pretty much took all our time up! And it felt so good to do so well on my PT test! I don't really remember what I did for sit ups and push ups.. but that's not what made me happy anyways!!! I did do a 5:06 wall sit.. And that my friends is crazy! I thought my legs were going to fall off, but Travis assured me that its never happened before!

The part that makes me the proudest is running... For the PT test we had to run a 1/2 mile... 4 laps around the track?!?!? EEEKKK!!! I had NEVER done more than 2 laps running at a time.. and I thought I was going to die after that.. My absolute fastest 2 lap run was 2:48.. so Travis wanted me to do it in 6:30, even tho I thought that was pushing it cause I was planning on walking at least part of a lap to catch my breath before running the rest of the way! BUT... I got told by Travis and Dorian that Indigo doesn't walk.. Indigo runs!! So with intern Julie by side cheering me on and taking away all my bad thoughts, I ran.. and I ran.. and I ran some more (At least it felt like forever.. haha) AND I DID IT!!! And somehow, Travis pinned it pretty much right on the nose.. I ran it in 6:32!!!

Week One ended with a climb up Mt. Everest (Travis' KILLER workout) and a 12lb weight loss!! YAY! I've never lost that much in a week! Granted, some of it was water weight from my weekend splurge.. But a lot of it was eating right and kicking butt!!

Then came Week Two... I'm calling this the OFF WEEK!! Everyone on my team has been killing it tho!! Our challenge this week is Group Exercise classes! I've got in 12 this week even after having 2 days off from the gym! Snowpocalypse 2011 ruined my gym time on Tuesday and Wednesday.. But I still got a little bit of a calorie burn when I shoveled a whole lot of snow, and went sledding (steep hills with a foot of snow are a pretty good workout climb up them again and again!) Without my workouts and I wasn't fully on top of my nutrition game, I was soo afraid of my weigh in this week..............

But at weigh in, I ended up losing 2.8 lbs.. So I'm at a total of 14.8 lbs down in 2 weeks (That is OK with me!)

AND... The best thing.. I hit ANOTHER milestone this week!! I am FINALLY in the 200s!!!! 297.4 to be exact!!!! Gotta keep this up at a huge pace... I've got 2 major rewards once I hit 200lbs that I am super excited about doing!!! So its back to my game face... Super nutrition.. Super workouts.. And resting my body as much as possible so that when I do my workouts, I can give 110%!!!

"ALLL MY LIFFEE, I WANTED TO BE AN INDIGO GIRL!!!... We're not red team.. We're not blue team... We're not paprika... WE'RE INDIGO!!!!"


I love my team.. I love my trainers!!

Biggest Loser 2011

Tonight is the BIG night!!

Biggest Loser 2011 Kick-Off!!

I'm rather excited! I know I won't be at my lowest weight tonight when I weigh in, mostly because this weekend was a full cheat weekend! But I didn't go completely wild! Just a few dinners and some drinks to tide those cravings over for at least 10 weeks!!! I weighed in this morning at 310, so I should be somewhere around there this afternoon! That's 140 down (but I know I'll take off those extra pounds real quick to get back to 150!!)

Its going to be a ROUGH 10 weeks! Travis and Dorian are my trainers and they've both told me that we don't even know whats coming for us... All I know, is that it will hurt, and yet feel SO good!! I've recently felt really good about my progress in running especially. My 1/4 mile time record was set at 2:58.. and in just two training sessions (We run it at the beginning) I cut my time to 2:52 and then 2:47!! I was beyond happy! And I know during these 10 weeks, it will only keep getting better!

My plan is to lose at least 50lbs by April 1st! That's 5lbs per week! If I stay on it with my nutrition, I should have NO problem doing that!! I'm really excited! I need the extra push to keep me going. Its not JUST me that is needing a big number.. but so is my team, and I'm all about winning!

So tonight is the night... the night where it all starts up again... I can't flipping wait! Let's go Purple/Blurple/Indigo/Sky Blue team!! (We aren't exactly sure what our color is supposed to be! haha!)